“Rosy is a fucking
slut from hell.” Jacqui, with her gloomy face, punched the wall when she got
into the classroom that day. The whole class was shocked, looking at her. She
slammed a textbook on the desk.
“What are you
looking at? Mind your own business!” Yelling at the classmates who were
watching her drama, she pulled her chair and sat down.
“Relax, what’s the
matter?”
“Last night she
called me for a drink, she said she has things to talk about. Like an idiot, I
said yes, yes, yes. Picked her up and I took her butt for a nice dinner.”
“And then?”
“She said, she loves
me. Gary is nothing. Only after half an hour, or forty-five minutes, Gary came
and kissed her and she left me entirely like a fool. Just like that, bro…just
like that…not even saying a word.”
“Do you love this
bloody lips?”
“Fuck, I hate
her.”
“Then why does it
affect you this much? I think you should get over her. Caroline is sweeter and
better in every aspect.”
“You don’t
understand, Andrey. She is hot in bed. When she got hot, she could bear a solid
night, game after game… you won’t understand, you are a virgin butch.”
Her assertion made
me laughed. I am no longer a virgin butch. An amazing woman got me lost it all
for a great night and said it was fantastic, the lovemaking was perfect.
“You wouldn’t
know… maybe Caroline could offer you better than that.”
“Ahhh, she is a
bookworm.”
“Even worms, they
fuck.” I tried to make her laugh, but no… wasn't funny enough to even make her
smile, so I asked her, “then, what are you going to do?”
“I hate this Gary
cunt. She thinks she is so cool in her sunglasses. They kissed before my
eyes, what the fuck. If I lost my patience, I would just kick her tits. Damn
it!”
“If Rosy didn't
bring it out, she wouldn't get the chance. It’s the girl to blame. The dyke for
sure will be proud of it and you… don’t show them your weakness. The more you
show, the more they brag. Play it cool.”
“Cool? Just now, I
met her at the car park. She said sorry for last night and told me to stick
with her. She stated that Gary sucks in bed… and she loves me, always needs me. She
asked me to come over to her house tonight. But then when she saw Gary, like a whore,
she ran to that fucker and left me speechless.”
“Then tell her to
fuck herself. Don’t bother.” My friend didn't reply. She buried her face on the
desk.
During recess,
Jacqui and I went to the cafeteria. We grabbed a burger and a coke before we chose a
table in a corner. From afar, we saw Rosy and friends, taking their place on
the opposite table. Caroline was there too. She smiled at us. Jacqui threw her
sight to another direction. After a few minutes, the dyke called Gary joined
the group, with her dark glasses. For whatever reason, that dyke has an
obsession of wearing dark glasses all the time. She took her seat next to Rosy
and she kissed her cheek. I leered at Jacqui’s expression. Annoyed.
“Relax, please
don’t do anything stupid. Finish your burger, then we can get out of here.”
“It’s OK. I'm
playing it real cool. I’m cool. At least I’m far better looking than that black
dyke, a nigger wanna be. Fucking shit!”
My cell phone
beeped. A message.
“Turn to your
left, I am sitting among the others. Catch me if you can, hunter.”
“See this, bro,” I
showed Jacqui the message.
“Psycho...” said
Jacqui as she stretched her neck, inspecting to the left side. I too did the
same thing. Many students were sitting there, walking, talking… there was no
possibility to catch the psycho. Girls, boys…teachers…workers, could be anyone
among the crowd.
“This asshole is a
mental bitch, or dick or whatever it is.” Commented my friend.
“Have you tried to
call this psycho again?” I shook my head and said, “Useless.”
“Hey, guys… May I
join?” A familiar voice greeted us. Sophia. A surprise to me actually. I
got a glance at Jacqui’s curious face. My heart bloomed. It smiled, joyfully.
“Please,” I
contentedly welcomed my dream girl, put aside the puzzlement rendered in my
friend’s mind. Once in a while, I saw her eyes gawking at the opposite table,
to her Rosy and the gang. I smiled at her countenance. My dream girl took her
seat and I offered her a drink, so I went to buy her an apple juice and salad
as she wished.
“Thank you,
Andrey,” said my beautiful biology teacher, flashing me a tempting smile.
“So now the examination is over. I hope you guys are ready for the following chapter.”
Sophia started the conversation. I missed that smile really much. It took me
back to the rainforest and waterfall I always longing for.
“Have you marked
our papers, Miss?” Asked Jacqui. From the expression painted on her face, I know she's not bothered to receive an answer.
“Half,” answered Sophia.
“But Jacqui, you
need extra concentration.” She added. Jacqui looked unhappy for the
recommendation.
“Are you telling
me, I sucked?” My friend asked for further detail. Sophia's response has caught her attention. But the teacher smiled at her
and replied, “I don’t say that. It's just that you should put some effort, Jacques.”
Like always, her voice is constantly relaxing with a smile and tenderness.
“Hmm, my score
must not be very appealing, I believe.” Jacqui lowered her voice, her eyes
leered to the opposite table and back to my face.
“You still have
time to improve as long as you have the urge.” I attempted to convince my upset
friend.
“Well, Andrey… do
you have things to do tomorrow?” My teacher cleared up her point.
“If it’s the
dinner, I am available, Miss. Just name the time.”
“Great. So, I will
pick you up at eight tomorrow. Perfect?”
“Just perfect.
I’ll text you my address then.”
“No need. It has
all been taken care of. See you both in the lab.”
Giving me no
room for a question, nor a reply, she then made her way, leaving us both to
continue our conversation. Right after she attained a few steps, Jacqui aid
with her eager eyes almost screaming, “you fucker! You date a teacher?!!! What the
hell, you virgin dyke!” I laughed. She laughed too, harder than me. Rosy and
friends seemed disturbed by our laughter. I caught them looking at us.
“Well, as you can see, she asked for it, not me.” Laughed again.
“Cool… cool…
Sophia is indeed cool. She’s hot, bro. I thought you liked the lion. At once a
tiger asking you for a date, lucky bastard. She should ask me. I’ll beam her to
heaven.”
When Jacqui mentioned the word ‘lion’, something immediately hit my heart. Rina’s face came into my
sight. A great night spent with her has touched my sensibility. Should I tell
her about Sophia’s invitation? Confused. The circumstances mixed me up. It left
me no clue to define what exactly I feel about the teacher. Is it love or merely
a pleasure for the concern and affection she gave, for the extra lesson she
taught me a few nights ago or the affection is coming softly right to my
senses?
“Are you free this
afternoon or do you need to waste your time in the library?”
“I have time
before five.”
“Five?”
“I run.” She
nodded.
“Join me after
school. I need to buy some books. I actually have no idea, but my private
teacher asked me to get the books by today.”
Jacqui slid her hand inside her
pocket and took out a piece of paper.
“You need a
private teacher? Haha, they come to your house to give you a special tutor?”
“My parents’ wish.
I hate that teacher, anyway. Sometimes she brings along her three-year-old son…
Hell, I hate it. If it’s the lion or the tiger, I would be really lucky then. I swear I
would be constantly ready and motivated to sustain private tuition, say it
every day, I’d be dying with all my soul to surrender but this old woman, gosh…
a disaster. My parents should have drawn me a hot teacher, then everything
would be perfect as they wished.” Her honest explanation can really cheer me up. I like this kid.
Jacqui was so happy when I agree to
accompany her to the book store after school that day. Luckily, we found the
books she needed, and after that Jacques invited me for refreshment. There she
started.
“I suppose you
should try the tiger. Tomorrow. Saturday night, bro.”
“Gosh, no. She is
our teacher.”
“Yea, and? Doesn't
mean she has no sexual drive. Could be a lesbian too. If I were you, I would
use all my magical spell to get into her knickers.”
I threw off my
head, however, I showed her my interest. This kid seems to know what she is talking about. I find it interesting.
“You seem really spirited in sex and know really
well about that stuff.”
“Oh, yes I do.
Sophia is really hot! I bet she is wild in bed. You, my friend, you should give
up your virginity to a woman like that. Chances like this come only once in a
lifetime. Wasting it for a girl like Caroline is not worthy. The lion is indeed
a heaven on earth.”
“Caroline is
sweet, I find her cute and smart.”
“Yea, yea… she’s
exactly like you, a virgin lesbian. I don’t think that she has ever been
kissed. Do you like her?”
“I like her
attitude. She is not as loud as your bloody lips, or the other in the clique.”
Jacqui’s face
turned sour when I pronounced that name.
“Haha…hey Jacques,
relax…hmm any way, do you think Sophia is a lesbian?”
“Could be… but
Rina is for certain. I can tell she is.”
“How?”
“Sophia… hmm could
be straight, but for sure we can bend a straight, just need some adjustment.
Rina, I don’t know, I just feel it by the way she looks at me… particularly you,
fucker. But, it’s just my assuming. We need to dig deeper to know the truth.
Some are just afraid to come out. They prefer to stay inside the closet till
their pussies get rotten.” We laughed out loud to the elucidation made by my
funny babbling new friend.
Jacqui and I spent
around 2 and a half-hour in a mall till around four before she sent me back to school
to pick up my bike. I didn't want to be late to fetch Rina for our daily run.
So I rushed home, took a quick shower and drove my machine straight to her
house. When I got there, she was sitting, reading on the bench in her small
garden.
“Honey…” She
greeted and kiss my cheek.
“Ready for a run?”
“Hon, hmm... Can
we just rest today?” She took both of my hands and wrap them around her waist.
“Lazy…” I picked
her nose and she guided me inside the house.
“Just took your
shower? I can smell it.” Giving me a kiss on my cheek, she's then taking a seat on the sofa. I followed her.
“I went to the mall with Jacqui after school. Accompanied her to buy some books. No siesta today.”
“Haha, that lazy
butt needed some books, what a surprise.” So I told Rina why Jacqui needed the
books.
“I missed you…”
Taking her hand, I made the confession. She smiled at me and kissed my lips.
“I missed you
more, honey. All-day, every day.”
“Rina…”
“Hmm…tell me.”
“Tomorrow Sophia
will pick me up at eight.”
“Oh, at last.
Great. So you gave in to her invitation.” I simply nodded. My eyes gazing deeply into
her reflection, attempting to prod deeper into her ideas.
“Be home before
ten, it’s a command.” She broke up a gag. No. It is definitely not a joke.
“I mean it.” She
added quickly. I laughed.
“Is this
jealousy?”
“Somewhat.” I took
her in my arms and gave a simple kissed on her seducing lips.
“You know, hon,
your paper was the first I examine. I'm really impressed by your improvement.”
“What is my
grade?”
“Let it be a
Monday surprise.”
“Rina, hmm…”
“Yes, honey… let
it out.”
“I wonder if I
will be rewarded for the improvement…” She smiled, moving closer to my heart
and said, “you smell so good, honey…”
On the dot at
eight, Sophia reached me in front of my gate. Get in her car, she rendered me a
dazzling smile and thank me once again for accepting her invitation. We went to
a restaurant, a place I have never been to. I never cared much about that, as
long as I am with her. Feeling so lucky to spend the night with her, I silently
made a wish that this won’t be the first and the last date for us. My brain
gave out few questions… Would this woman care for a dance? Does she like to
camp? Can she paint? Does she care gazing into the sky with me? Would she be as
caring as Rina? I wish to know it all, as good as I understand about Rina
through the good times we spent together. If possible, I’d like to know her better than
I know Rina and spend as much time as I could with her. Would she care to do
the same, just like Rina, without any hesitation doing anything for me? How I wish… But does
she wish the same?
“Andrey, I’d like
to congratulate you for doing excellently in the exam. I graded all the papers,
and you remain my highlight. My best student. You almost made no mistake at
all. I'm so proud of you. I wish you luck just as same in the other papers.”
“Thank you, Miss.
I’m very pleased to hear this and thank you for being a great teacher. Without
you, I wouldn't be this inspired. I adore the way you teach. Relax but clear
and intense. Hmm…What about Jacqui?”
“Oh… that one. She
certainly needs to put more effort, revision. As a friend, please do advice
her, Andrey. She won't improve if she goes on like
this.” I nodded.
“I’ll try my best
to let her see these matters with a clear mind.”
“Rina told me
about your improvement. She is so delighted, you know?” Again, the feeling of
guilt rushed into my consciousness. Rina… for a moment I thought about her
command. Be home before ten, and yes, she actually asked me to drop by her
place.
“I’m practising my
best, Miss. I promised my parents and myself. ” My puzzling brain had no better
words to depict.
“I believe in your
ability. You know Andrey, I truly impressed by what Rina has done to you.”
“What do you
mean?” The puzzlement getting harder. Why should she repeat that name during
our first date? I felt guilty. I know Rina is waiting for me.
“After what has
occurred, I can see your relationship with Rina is refining too, and I reckon
this has affected you to some level. I mean it positively. Rina and I, we do
discuss our students, and you are constantly highlighted. Mr Fauzi has also expressed his happiness that you finally made up your mind to continue art. I saw
some of your paintings. Impressive. You are gifted.”
“Thank you, Miss.
Like Mr Fauzi said, the talent shouldn't be wasted. I'm doing it in the sense
of affection in art. This I won’t neglect ever again and yea, it’s true, I
honestly blame myself for the wrongdoings I did to Rina. Her toleration has
opened up my mind. I did apologize to her once again. Her concern has left me a
conception regarding the future. I'm grateful to have her attention. And yours
too.” Sophia didn't say anything, her smile did the reply.
“What do you
usually do on Saturday night?” She inquired after a brief silence.
“Nothing much. At
home, TV, music, with my sisters. Once in a while, I go out alone. My life is
boring, Miss.”
“Don’t you hang
out with Jacqui?”
“No. I guess our
interests are different.”
“Hmm… yea, I can
see. She can do the talk. You are a quiet person who enjoys being alone. But as
I observe at school, both of you are getting closer. I have never seen you do
this to any other classmates or schoolmates.”
“I’m comfortable
with her, she is funny.”
And so the first
dinner went on. Nothing much to relate. It was somewhat a bit lacklustre, aside
from my obsession towards her that encouraged me to keep my eyes awake. Unlike
Rina who is passionate in everything I said and done, the conversation I held
with Sophia that night wasn’t like I had a bun in the oven.
My mind kept on
analysing the whole situation. Perhaps the dinner means nothing to her. It was
me who expected too much. Her face looked empty. Just as same as I see her at
school. This never occurred when I am with Rina who is always highly ardent
every time we are together. Reasonably, I felt a bit vexed and let down, bored.
Talking about school, study, biology… Those are not the things I like to discuss
during a special dinner like that. Anyways, I made all ears to every single
word she reads.
“Will your parents
make trouble if you come home late? I mean… do you need to be home at a certain
time?”
“No, Miss. My parents
are seldom at home. Even if they are home, they never laid up a curfew. I am
free to do anything I like as long as I keep them informed and know my limit.”
To that degree,
she warmed up the atmosphere when she eventually asked me for a walk after the
dinner, recommended a place near a beach located south of our city, just about
half an hour driving. She told me her life is somewhat boring too, in which
keep me wondering if she has no special someone who occupies her time. This
initiated me to naively ask her about that. As we strolled along the beach, she
took off to relate her story.
“I recently split
up with my fiancé. It was something I hate to relate actually. But since you
show your interest, I think there is nothing more that needs to be covered. In fact, many already know this.”
“I’m sorry to hear
that, Miss… I really do.”
“It occurred last
month, which was the reason why I said last month was a catastrophe. Well… I
think he wasn’t meant for me. We were never meant for each other.”
“How long have you been engaged? If you don’t mind, I would like to hear everything about it.” She
turned to me with a lonely smile upon her face.
Unexpectedly, she
took my hand and we walked hand in hand towards a fallen tree.
“The wave ebbs and
flows… just like life. It was a two-year engagement until last month. We are
supposed to tie the knot this coming September. Things better remain a dream… I
guess. The betrayal better always remains a secret… He has another woman. I am
broken, my trust can never be fixed.” The clarification left me wordless, know nothing
healthier than waiting for her to voice out her disappointment.
“It demands time
for sure, to heal the pain.” She went on.
“Miss, I am here
to listen.” I attended at her beautiful expression. Her eyes began to water as
she continued, “trusting someone,
I always keep my faith that fate has found me the best place to keep my heart.
How would I know that fate deceit?” She wiped her eyes with her fingers.
“I loved and
trusted him. But his wife needs him much more than I do. I am cheated, you
know? For some reasons I hate to know, he married that woman last year, the
same thing he promised me.” Her tears kept on falling. I took out my
handkerchief, slowly I touched her face and wiped her tears.
“You are beautiful
Miss, even when you shed the tears, but please don’t cry. It hurts me to see
you sad.”
“Thanks, Andrey.”
“I’m very sorry
for needing you this.”
“No, don’t be. I
wouldn’t let it out if don’t trust you.”
“Thanks for your
trust, Miss.”
“Sure, you are my
best.” She smiled at me when she said that.
“I may be too
young for you to discuss something like this, but I do understand how you feel.
And you are my favourite teacher, I would do anything to make you feel better.”
“You comfort me, I
like your company. Somehow... I know you make a good listener and I was right.
You care. Thanks.”
“Love doesn’t come
easily every day. Only true appreciation make it last forever. There must be
someone who will do this for you. I wish…”
My words stopped
there. I shouldn’t let something unsure out, at the wrong time.
“You wish…?” She,
however, expecting me to continue.
“I wish you all
the best. You deserve someone better, who appreciates and honestly loves you.
Someone who will never break your heart. I wish only the best for you.”
“I wish you the
same… I mean, through the journey of life, when the right time comes, you will
finally meet a person who you love, who wants to love you, needs you. Be gentle
and good to her, Andrey. Women need tenderness. They should be appreciated, not
hurt. Honesty is a respectable thing you can give, make them feel respected.”
“Yes, Miss. I will
never forget this. I won’t hurt the girl I love.”
“Have you got
one?” I smiled and shook my head.
“Still too early
for that…”
Rina's face instantly came to my intellect and psyche. I took a look
at my watch. Half-past ten. I broke the promise. Did I promise her that? It
was her command… I wasn’t sure if I should obey the command.
“Miss, would you
please excuse me… I need to make a call…hmm to inform my parents.” Yes, I lied.
For sure I had to, I didn’t like it, but to tell her about Rina is not a clever
thing to do.
So I walked a few
feet off from where we sit. The call answered within a beep. Before I managed
to make a howdy, she claimed the hint.
“Hon, I told you
to be home at ten.”
“I know, but she
asked for a walk.”
“Where are you
now?”
“Just around
here.”
“Yea, where?”
“At the beach…”
“Hmm, great, she
took you to the beach, and what after this?”
“She’ll drive me
home.”
“Or takes you to
hers?”
“No, Rina. No, I
don’t think so… please…”
“Ask her to drop
you in front of my door. I don’t care what time.”
“I promise, I will
be there as soon as she sends me home, OK. I will stay with you tonight.”
She
hung up, saying nothing. Jealousy took control, incontrovertibly. I went back
and sat next to Sophia.
“What did your dad
say?”
“He said, it’s OK…
hmm, my parents are both outstations but reminded me not to be so late home.” I
attempted to establish an alibi not to prolong the date even though I desired
to. On the other hand, I had to be with Rina. I never wanted to make her angry
or unhappy. Yes, I was tripping about that. I don’t want Rina to be mad at me
and takes away all the happiness she gives. I don’t want to lose her, at the
same time, I want to be closer to Sophia…
It is vindicated, Sophia is straight. Even so, the fact doesn't bother me at all. I don't really care about that. All that I know, I want to keep
my girls happy. Sophia. And Rina too. Both of them. Both are important. Both
have given meaning to my life. Yea, especially Rina who took me to a further
journey… we went too far. In essence, this is quite confusing. I want her, always want her. I
don’t know if I love her, however, I know that I need her. She made me feel
like I own her and this feeling definitely leaving me in a land of disarray.
“Andrey, maybe
you’d like to go out with me again some other time?” Sophia’s suggestion has
put me up to another degree of commotion.
“Sure Miss, why
not. I’m pleased to spend my time with you.” Within the tangle, I used no first
thought to spur out the assurance.
The night with
Sophia is finally over when she dropped me in front of my house. It was hard to
let her go as hard as to let Rina waits.
“Thank you
for a lovely night.”
“Thanks to you
too, Miss. I feel wonderful.”
Her eyes took on
mine when she held out her hand to me. As a last tip, her lips touched my cheek
before she bids me good night.
I stood there in
front of my house for a few moments till her car disappeared from my sight and
then I rushed to my bike, headed to Rina’s house.
As she opened the
door, there was no kiss, no honey, no smile, nothing. That indicated a not good
looking mood and hard work on Saturday night. I puffed a sigh with a smiling
heart. This gonna be my first experience to reconcile her.
“Enjoyed?”
She sat
down and switched the TV on. Her face refused to look at me.
“Rina, it was
nothing like the time I spent with you.”
“Yea, right… If
there was nothing why did she take you to the beach and sent you home this
late? See what time is it now? Almost one. You went out at eight. That made five
hours.”
I smiled and walked to her, took my seat by her side and my hand
immediately reached hers.
“Is the volcano
about to burst?” I kissed her hand and held it firmly. No response.
“Jealousy is a
rotten apple, teacher.” Caressing her hair, I left a kiss along her shoulder.
“Do you like her?
You want her?”
“No, Rina… She
just bust-up with her fiancé. So I listened to her… Well, OK... actually, I
was the one who asked her if she has someone in her life and she told me about
that.”
“Wow, she told you
about that? She trusts you, I assume. Yea, anyway, I know about her
breakups.”
“So? Why are you
acting like this? She’s definitely not a lesbian, she won’t give a thought
about me.”
“Hon, I am a
woman, I know how women think, people can change. And I also know you have eyes
on her, which was the reason for you to dig up the details.”
“I have my touch
on you… I kept thinking about you. You wouldn’t know that… You are important to
me, Rina. If I wanted to be with her, I wouldn’t call you when I was half an
hour late. I wouldn’t inform you anything and I wouldn’t ask her to send me
home. I would just let the time passing by and let her take the lead.” I
reached her face, looking deep into her eyes.
“I don’t ask you
to trust me, but I want you to see why I am here with you right now if I had a
chance to be with her…”
Our eyes met,
speaking to each other. Silent momentarily took up the room. I saw a glimpse of
light in her beautiful eyes. Looked glum but they were glowing, smiling at me.
“I missed you. I
truly do.” I caressed the face I adore. It was the first time I saw her let down by jealousy. On the other hand, I find it arousing when she sulks like that. I feel appreciated and loved with a pure-minded heart. She, however, remained silent. This tells me that I have to perform the task to win her heart, to indulging, pampering and spoil her soul so that the flame won't fade out. I don't want it to go out.
And so I moved closer to her, took her in my arms before I rested my lips on hers and kiss them so deeply.
“Here I am for
you. It’s not easy for me to be with someone else while brain can’t stop
thinking about you," I reassured my teacher and that was the truth, only
the truth, I spoke from my deepest soul. Letting her down is something I will
evade with all my might.
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